Monday, April 30, 2012

Fill This Blank

I don’t know but whatever I do, still, I can’t throw this feeling away. All I want right now is forget this thing and find something new, and do something like go ahead.
But you know, doing something is never easier than saying it, no matter if say it loud or not. Everybody admits it.
Never thought that a feeling like this could increase this fast.It grew from a small one... Right now it’s like I don’t wanna let this go, this is big I guess.
I hate to know that the further you go, the louder my heart screams ‘I miss you’. No one can stop this except... you know who. Except a person who makes my heart beats faster every time I look at him.
This thing sounds silly. But I can do nothing to heal this. Because………………..

Sunday, April 29, 2012

What About Now - Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

Now that we’re here,
Now that we’ve come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

Saturday, April 28, 2012

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Thursday, April 26, 2012


They found their love . How about me? Enjoy. Someday I’ll get, and I got better person . Because I’ll make something relationship be seriously . I hope, found good boy friend.

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Percaya,yakin,dan lakukanlah !

Yakin dan percaya apa yang aku ingin capai akan terwujud.
Optimis dalam mengerjakan apa yang dapat menjadi hasil yang membanggakan.
Dan aku yakin bahwa Allah memberikan suatu pelajaran yang berharga bahwa inilah hidup membutuhkan perjuangan untuk mencapai titik kebahagian.
Saat ini dimana aku harus berjuang sendiri untuk mewujudkan apa yang menjadi mimpi aku yang akan berubah menjadi kenyataan dimana aku dapat merasakan langsung mimpi itu menyentuh langsung.
Walaupun saat ini aku merasa lemah, aku berusaha terus untuk bisa beridiri kembali, kembali mengambil kebahagian yang telah pudar dan yakin untuk bisa mewujudkan itu semua dan berakhir dengan berada dalam kebahagian selamanya, karena aku tau bahwa Allah itu maha adil.

Friday, April 06, 2012

I’m an overthinker.

I hate it. I make a big deal out of the most simplest things. Create problems within my own head. Get all worked up over nothing. I wish I could just stop overthinking things, its only making things worse than it actually is. I need to learn how to stop overthinking the littlest things. Too bad I can’t help it.

Thursday, April 05, 2012


Diam membisu.
Meratapi penyesalan yang tak henti-hentinya menghantui. Kali ini aku benar-benar gak berani bernafas, gak berani melihat semburat cahaya matahari esok pagi. Ingin pergi selama-lamanya rasanya. Ingin menghilang, ingin mati.
Hampir saja terjadi kemarin malam.
Kalau bukan karena ingat pada Tuhan, mungkin hari ini gue tinggal nama. Benar ternyata, beberapa mencela gue, seakan mereka mengerti apa yang gue hadapi saat ini. Padahal, berani membayangkannya saja tidak. Menurut mereka ini terlalu tabu, terlalu dibuat-buat, terlalu kejam untuk ukuran kehidupan sekarang ini.
Hey, tapi ini kenyataannya. Gue menghadapinya sendiri. Berada di antara duka dan pilu, berada di antara hitam dan putihnya hidup, berada di sebuah perbatasan antara dua hal yang hampir tak memiliki perbedaan.
Bingung harus apa. Bingung apa yang harus dilakukan. Bingung harus bagaimana bersikap. Semua yang gue lakukan serba salah. Alasan tak lagi di dengar. Pembelaan berarti menentang. Padahal, diri siapa yang ingin disalahkan atas sesuatu yang bukan salahnya? Coba beri tahu kalau kalian tahu jawabnya.
Ujian semakin dekat, tapi diri gue dan diriNya semakin berjarak. Gue sadar ini salah, aku tahu, tapi entah mengapa.. Susah rasanya kembali ke jalan yang benar. Gue coba untuk bangun di tengah malam, tapi ternyata telinga ini terlalu tuli untuk mendengar jeritan weker setiap pagi. Padahal ingin rasanya aku mengadu, memohon ampun, meminta yang terbaik dariNya. Ingin rasanya aku mengemis tengah malam memohon kasihNya, memohon ridhaNya, memohon peluk kasih sayangNya yang melebihi kasih sayang seluruh manusia di bumi ini. Ingin, dan aku butuh keinginan itu menjadi kenyataan.
Mungkin aku harus berusaha lebih keras lagi.
Mungkin taubat adalah jawaban atas semua kebingungan selama ini. Atau mungkin itu semua bukan lagi mungkin, tapi harus.
Berjuang, diri. Jaga tutur kata dan sikap. Semua akan indah pada waktunya, pada jalanNya.

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

Love Likes Shadow, I mean.

If you watched the Mario Teguh Golden Ways program before, you would get this:
“If it’s not crazy, it’s not love”. And I agree with it. I have it ones “smile and crying are love”, do you know why? because love isn’t at the longest smiling or crying. Suddenly we smile or cry without cause, it likes a crazier. Too difficult to say our feeling, too happy, too sad, everything you feel about love. “crazy=smile=cry=love?” don’t ask to me!
Each talked about love, it will focus to someone special, won’t it? I think so. And I have some meanings of love. Love is my mate, love is my friends, love is my family and many more. And they’re of special figure for us, aren’t they? Great!
But now, I would like to tell you about my sense of love. I don’t know why I want to write this before, want you to know that when I write this, I’m listening the love songs. Very nice, it’s unconditional feeling for me.
In this part of paragraph I write with the other feeling guys. Not the same as before. Like as I said, Love likes a shadow. we can’t guess the shadow has the same expression with us, whether he/she was also pleased, whether he/she is angry or sad. no one knows. shadow is always there wherever we go. the same goes with feeling, there will always be a feeling each of us breathe.
Love has many meanings, and sometimes it can make us very happy or it can very hurt us. I already can’t speak anymore about it, very hard to be expressed by the sentences

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

i’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn’t do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all… for not hating you which I know I should… but I can’t.

Monday, April 02, 2012

It kills me that I see you every day and I know things can never be the same. I hate not talking to you, but I know it’s the only way to get over you. You hurt me more than I deserve, and I need to learn how to be more independent. But I just.. I miss you. Not because I can’t have you, because I could. Not because you’re far away, because you’re not. Not because you hate me, because you don’t. I miss the way things used to be; the way you used to be. I miss us. Our stupid jokes, our cute moments…They were what I lived for, and now that they’re gone and probably will never come back…I’m just lost.