This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed,
and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know
it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just
make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not
only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s
falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what
this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them.
And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you
still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just
do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you
love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of
relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re
just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to
where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over
them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to
show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there
forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt,
no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if
it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain
you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically
you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you,
and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve
had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the
point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many
nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars
and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know
that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you
ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have
been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your
throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are
trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it
won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the
hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re
still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you
are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love
them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to
love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And
then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of
this…
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